October 3, 2026

 

Today you get photos.  What a stunning day?  Patrick and I sat outside for a bit, watched hawks sore above us and maple leaves turn in front of all blue skies.

I went up to LAVA to see an art show, but I couldn't stand very well so I just spent a short time with staff enjoying being there.  9 months into my departure I'm still using ours or other possessive pronouns.  I took a few portraits and went in search of food.

Clara and T. helped me go through a few boxes in the garage.  They are mainly books.  They are all my professional books that  are covered in webs and mold and I suppose should go into the dumpster.  I had T. toss 3 boxes into the pile.  I had a half a box of children's art.  I took these 2 paintings of Ember's out and threw everything else away.  

I threw a few journals out.  I think they say the same things as today's journals say. They were filled with poems and little sketches and description of post traumatic stress even though I didn't know that at the time and just thought all of it implied I was crazy.  

I took myself to China Gourmet for appetizers.  I'm sad Patrick has gone back to the island.  I promised him I'd write him a letter.  Like in the old days, no I just thought maybe I could express my feelings about the summer better in writing than  I can in person.