October 20, 2026

Happy Birthday, Carrie Chase.  

I wanted to spend this day finishing up all the loose ends.  I didn't completely succeed in doing so, but I got  more done than I was assuming.   I can't find my documents for 2026.  I'm afraid there are a couple of boxes that got made and I haven't seen yet.  Went through 2 of them tonight.  Most of them were records of my medical bills in the past 6 months.  SCARY 

I did go for a short ride to the rookery.  It was 60 there today and beautifully blue.  There were geese, wood ducks and blue jays.  

The deep oranges are now fading and as soon as we have one good rain we'll be on the end of fall.  It truly has been a stunning season, though.  Almost 4 solid weeks of colors deepening before our eyes.  I'm very thankful for the past month's weather.  It has helped me tremendously.   

Now the heat is on.  I haven't turned it up full, but I have put it up to 60.  Time to get the fuel assistance papers into the office, thus, I am rummaging through paperwork. 

Do you think it is possible that I will have to give up my independent life before I turn 80?  Is it possible that I will lose my house?  It's getting more frightening taking in the consequences of my age.  I am trying hard not to let it cause anxiety and have faith that I will find a solution before it's too late.  Tomorrow is another day, as my mother would have said.

Because it is my cousin, Carrie's b'day today, I thought about my mother a lot.  I also thought about Carrie's grandmother.  I became aware that the majority of my memories of California 

are independent of my siblings and that I have more California memories that I share with EJ than any of my living siblings.  Jason and I have some shared California.  He and I had a couple of trips together when he was a kid.  I think I need to visit before I'm too old to travel all together.