September  4, 2026

This dragonfly was so beautiful.  I spent over an hour at the canal today, most of the time on the phone with Annie, but  still staring out at tons of ducks.   Saw 2 heron.

In a sense today was the most routine day I have had in 7 weeks.  I slept in a little, but when I did get up I got dressed and went to the canal.  It was  lovely.   I saw 2 heron and I had the feeling if I were a little stronger and got out of the car there would have been others in the reeds.  There certainly were a lot of ducks.  

Those early  signs of fall are popping up and the temperature is quite perfect.  Lovely.

I went and ate shrimp at the Coop and came home and slept.  It is amazing how tired I get and how weak I feel, but I think strength is beginning to build.

EJ made me a big pot of Greek bean soup.  It's really good.  It was a perfect dinner.  Made me truly happy.  He and Nash hung out here for an hour or so and made me healthy food.  I am so grateful and blessed. 

If you've never been through medical trauma count your  lucky stars.  I'm still feeling beat up and bruised, but is dominant is not quite knowing where I am.  That's why making this drive that I've done for over 6 years almost everyday is so meaningful, so anchoring,  it  bleeds through the trauma and reminds you of normality.

I did try  to write today, to no avail, but I started.  I also read Billie's blog and it inspired me a little.  I read several Berry poems and that led me to some Merwin.  I'll read more tomorrow and maybe be able to write before the event on the 6th.   I want to write an Ode to Staying on Earth.