November 23, 2025
My soon to become famous star Godchild.  I'm telling ya, they can't miss.

 

I wrote a lot today and I'll have to make something of it and share it, but what it made me sure of was I had to disassociate on Friday and I'm just right now coming back in.

I think that all of the talk of the Epstein Files has been more triggering than I had assumed it would be, but as the ripples have begun to effect my friends, they have begun to infiltrate me.  I actually have a lot to add to the conversation of disclosure of abuse and especially sexual abuse.  But I have not found the appropriate venue to share those ideas.  And I don't believe this blog is a good space to do that.  I wish I did, and it maybe cowardice, but it's not.  

I did write a lot today and I didn't take pictures.   I did go through old camera equipment.  I have to figure out what to do with old camera equipment.  I need to give Gary back his camera eventually, so it would be nice if I create one for myself first.   I am hoping I actually have a usable Pentax made from separate cameras.  Maybe?  Or a Canon or two.  It's so hard to know what has gone wrong and how much it would cost to clean one up, but I think out of all of the bits and pieces I must have one good body and some lenses.   

Winter has begun.  We feel like snow now as we trip into Thanksgiving week.  I'm not going to travel this week except maybe to Vermont.  I'll go to Annie's on Sunday to see her hard work., but for the most part I'm going to hunker down in my own home.  

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