August 31, 2025
Amie and I finally got to do a favorite ride together.  What a beautiful day for the last day of August, and a gorgeous day for a slow ride throughout the county.  When I dropped Amie off at home she looked up to see a heron fly in front of the moon, proof that all was well at that moment.


What a day.  I won't talk about the triggers that rock my world, they are kind of irrelevant at the moment.  Nightmares during an afternoon  nap are frustrating.  One takes a nap for refreshment, not to sink into depression.  Sometimes I think its just blood sugar falling and other times its being vulnerable to too much of the outside world.  Today it may have been both.  But going for a ride with Amie, like we used to do all the time, was a wonderful antidote. 

We drove the dirt road to Northfield.  We went all the way to the Brewery and then back again.  The Connecticut is so beautiful between Gill and Northfield.  It was lovely 


We went and sat at the Cove for a bit.  The light was beginning to change, it was very fairy like.  And we drove by the space across from the Cove where you can see all the birds alongside.  There were ducks and swan out.




And instead of going home we went up to Poets Seat to watch the sunset.  It was much more interesting tonight.



The two potential models for photographs were this lovely phoebe and Mars.  You can't see Mars in the photos although he is there.  
Throughout the entire time we were there a kid was swinging on a swing set down below making this horrible sound and a young man was playing the guitar lovingly right next to us.  Quite the juxtaposition.  It was so sweet to be there at the end of the evening and watch as the town goes soft.  I really do like it.


Didn't make it to the rookery, but I did get to phone visit with Kevin and with Annie.  And then to be gentle with Amie to end the day was great. 

 EJ checked in.  Their ensconced at Bard.  

Most important thing is I allowed my nervous system to settle back down and to connect with the pleasantness available in my life.  I also did a check in to take stock in what a good week it was and how many interesting things were presented to me, and how generally lucky my life is.   I miss some people, I miss some ways of being in the world that I no longer am capable of being, but basically I have a good life.  Thank you all who help that be truth.  I love you.




 

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  1. AmarieusAugust 31, 2025 at 10:41 PM

    It was Avery sweet evening, thank you for the ride. Glad it eased you as well

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