February 28, 2025

 I can't quite remember what year it was.  What year was anything?  I spend so much time trying to create the timeline of my life.  I can't figure out what the obsession is all about.  I want to remember what year it was Teddy Becker and I sailed a wooden raft out into the Sound off the Madison beach.  It must have been 1966.  I think I had my first Twizzler then, too.  I spend hours trying to establish dates for tiny little memories that no one remembers but me.  Like the story I told the other night about drinking for the first time, I think that was 1967, but then I think, was it?  And what does it really matter?  

Most recently its made me want to talk to Barb and ask her if she remembers.  Was Paul 16 in 1966?  He would not have had his license yet that summer, but Daddy let him drive the Wagoner on the highway.  The truth is Paul was probably a more competent driver at that point.  Daddy was in and out of the hospital, so unable to function, it made sense to let his 15 year old son drive.  60 years later Paul is still driving for a living. 

So what year was it that we went to West Dover for the summer?  That was 1966.  What year did Sergeant Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band get released?  1967, ok so we went to West Dover in 1967 in the Simca, so I must have gotten drunk for the first time in 1967.  So you can see that everything tumbles into each other on the timeline and I am so very confused by what I was thinking about  between 1964 and 1967, between the ages of 11 and 14; those years were an entire lifetime.  


Thank you, Joanne Hayes for giving me red tulips last Friday and providing me with the opportunity to document their life span.   The color has been what I have looked at all week stuck in this house, unable to get to my birds, I've had tulips.  I am so very grateful.   But their time maybe at an end.  This maybe their last show.


Went to a LAVA event tonight, again walked away with a lot to think about and the complete realization that I have the passion for the work but not the stamina.   I'm really willing to pass along curricula though.  


Normally I'd post this on FB, but tonight.  Here is my month in photos.  February was snowy and it was quiet.  I only got to the rookery twice this month or 3 times.  I did put on a couple of events and I was given flowers.  Good bye February.  See ya next year.  

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