January 6, 2026

I made the decision to let go of the Jetta.  It was hard, but I think the right thing  to do.  The first step I had to make was to find the title which set me down a journey of reflection.  Now I knew it had to me 1 of four  drawers and that each of those drawers had become a compilation of 2018 -2026 poetry, extra photos, business papers and house documentations.  But which one and which file would I have put the new title in Feb. 2021?  

This is the first letter I wrote Jason when I went off to Marlboro in 1974.  He was 9 and I was 21.  We had been separated one other time for interspersed 8 months in 1970, but we had been with each other daily since 71.  I don't know who it was harder for.   Notice those a's, what style.

This is Christmas I think in Unionville about 1989?  Mommy made Grace that dress which made them both extremely happy.  Grace wore it a lot, it was so pretty.  Mommy made a lot of clothes in this period of her life.  She turned 70 that year.  She truly loved those grandchildren and sewing was something she could always do for them.  (and for me and Marg)

I found some other narratives I wrote that I hadn't seen in years.  I found a folder with stuff in it from the beginning of my class work for my doctorate.  Again it brought up people we lost this year.   What an interesting chapter of our lives.  If I live as long as my mother did when she said that "looking forward stopped making sense, it was best to look back or to look at today, now", I will have all this documentation to have by myside.  I did throw some out today and organized the rest.   Years and years of data about family and life.          And I found my  title.

I so think I found enough of EJ's artwork over the past 25 years to write a paper on their artistic development.  I love this early EJ Worth comic strip.

The other thing I did was see the knee doctor.  I am looking at a knee replacement.  It does not have to be now, but soon.   He drained the liquid off my knee and gave me a cadisone shot.  Knee feels much more stable than it has in a year.  He took me off the pain killer.  Told me to take over the counter stuff when I needed it, but to give my kidneys a rest.   So, I am looking at a few life style changes and preperation for knee replacement and eye surgery in the next six months.  But first the house.