December 4, 2025
A Hole In The Sky.


I didn't get a nap today, I did get some stuff done.  I went out into the world today and I met the specialist doctor of the day. I feel that each merry go round. representing the three medical issues I am having, is organized and moving forward, which is better than 2 weeks ago when I felt trapped in a maze of the medical world's making.  I'm also going to teach myself the details of the digestive system of our bodies so I can have a better understanding of the information that is thrown at me in these appointments.  


photo by Gary

Gary went down in the basement, a job usually handled by T., and discovered I have more oil in my tank than I thought.  I was worried about running out during this 2 day cold burst.  But I have a month or so before I need to figure out emergency fuel stuff.  Tomorrow I will fill out all the forms though and be all set for when I need it.  I also have to fill out the forms for my Y membership again, and I need to fill out forms for this, that and the other thing.  

But tonight I will soak in the warmth of Gary's photo of my fuel gage.  Happiness.



The moon is full tonight.  When I left work at 6 it was snow showering and the moon wasn't available.  When I got home it was shining through the maple tree, but my hands were full.  While I cooked dinner I went on fb and some of my friends did lovely jobs capturing the moon.  So I stayed in the house and tomorrow night I'll catch it with the camera.

It is holiday time.  Sometimes I think December doesn't really exist, it's just a long liquid tunnel through events and emotions. I was surprised by the lights this evening.  and why was the flag at half mast? I never feel in command in December and I just try to only put myself in situations where I won't get drowned in that liquid tunnel.  



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