December 3, 2025
Jay C. Davis, you are a turkey



I have not popped out of sleep in the middle of the night, in the middle of snow, scared before, and last night I did.  I'm not sure exactly why accept that pain makes you much more vulnerable in this world.  All of a sudden I knew everything in this life is tenuous.  And then this morning, as I'm trying to get up and face a day, I get his daughter's message.   We are vulnerable, life is tenuous, why do we make it harder on ourselves, and why would we make it harder on our kids if we could prevent it. 
We had maybe 6 inches yesterday.  I was really grateful it didn't turn to ice and rain at the end.  I think it was pretty wet and it's gonna be icy tonight, but it was pretty for the morning.

Diane turned me on to a plow guy who came at noon, and Gary was already here helping me.  Got the car out while baking apples.  Actually I was kind of amazed how overwhelmed I was when I woke up and how much I pulled off once I made myself organize on the have to's of the day.   By one I think I had spoken to 20 people.  
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I went up to the Coop and did the puzzles and then I took my drive up over Taylor Rd.  As I drove up over a little hill I almost banged into a gang of turkeys.  They were spread out across the road and were not letting my car boss them around until the very end.  What do turkeys indicate?
ABUNDANCE, great gifts are headed my way.  I find that so interesting; to be called a turkey is an insult, but it indicates gifts. 
I think there were another 3 or 4 by my side, too.  They were just straight out across the road in front of me when I saw them.  I've been watching them grow all year.  I know it is deer season, but is it turkey season, too.


I saw no hawks, but you can tell I looked, those are the trees where they usually sit.  The world is beautiful and injured.  People are wonderful and hurt.  I am vulnerable, but oh so grateful.   

Welcome to December, I'm going to try and float through this one, but keep expressing it, too.   The curtain is opening for me, I can tell and even though it is shaky, I know its there.  How could it not be?



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