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December 10, 2025



The rookery two years ago, all those trees under water that today are just damp with no real water depth below them.   


Today's weather was not unlike it 2 years ago.  We have more snow on the ground and there was not the fog, but it felt like it was going to snow the minute I woke up.  Yesterday it was 0 when I got out of bed, today it was 30 and it is now 35 at 9 at night.   The fear of ice dominated my decision making all day so I canceled Writers Read and rescheduled it for next Wednesday so we don't miss it as a staff.  It's important to me to celebrate it as I step away from being a staff member.

But I didn't get a ride in, nor did I shoot any photos except the 2 that follow.  The world was visually grey and not capturing me.  




I made it to the pool this morning.  I'm always so happy I am there, not only do I like the people I'm there with, I like the mobility, I like traveling through the water and smiling.  It sounds so silly, but it is really important.

I also had therapy for the first time in 3 weeks today which was very good timing.  It really is helpful for me to stay up beat.  If I have that one person's attention who is truly there for me that hour, I release a lot of pessimism, doubt, and glumness.  Today I bragged about EJ.  I bragged about Kevin's attitude as he faces a heart procedure in the morning.  He's so positive, it' s infectious.  

And afterwards I went to the Coop to do my puzzles and I stared at these cupcakes, wishing Clara was there to divide one with me.   I don't know why I am so attracted to them.  They are much more decadent than my usual tastes, and I could not have handled one, but I stared. 

I came home to those little black birds with their white tummies and chick a dees in my bushes, and more feel of more snow.  It never came.  It never came and I probably shouldn't have canceled Writers Read but I continue to be safe rather than sorry. 



 

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