March 18, 2025

Drove down to the canal today.  There was only 1 swan there.  There were 200 geese, but very few ducks and 1 swan.  They must have paired off and found their way back to the Cove where they will lay their eggs and raise the babies.   The geese aren't at that point, yet, and the eagles are sitting on nests and not around at two in the afternoon.   It was lovely down there, but I couldn't get my head around anything.   Came on home.





When I first saw the swan like this I was afraid he was dead.  It took a long time for him to move, and then he only raised his neck for a second and went back into his sleep posture.  The geese were a little more active, but not much more.  It was a sleepy day on the canal.

The river, however, was running fast and high.  I didn't get any pictures outside the cove where the water was rushing.  The dam was open.





Clara brought me a Mesa Verde salad with catfish for dinner.  It was yummy.   Tomorrow I need to buy a new blood sugar meter.  I think I've kept things under control, but I haven't measured anything in over a month.  Yesterday I spent an hour and half at the eye doctors being tested for insurance purposes to see if they will cover eye lid surgery. When they asked me questions about my blood sugar I couldn't tell them precisely and I'm not sure they trusted my self analysis.  I think I'm pretty aware, but tomorrow I'll go back to being formal about it.  

You'd think I'd have a good story to tell tonight, but I don't seem to.   I saw an old friend at the Coop today and caught up.  That made me smile.  I finished sending in the application to the Vermont Artists Studio writing retreat program.  It's the first year I've had the confidence to go through with the application.  Being asked to be a guest author for Queen's Narrative really upped my confidence.  I've submitted to 7 journals and the studio in the past 2 weeks.  

Our Massachusetts Rep. is holding a Town Hall here tonight.  I wanted to go, I wanted to hear first hand what the Congress is doing to counteract the horrendous situation at the moment.  But I am so on the edge of depression I realized that hearing about it would push me over.  I am not able to sit with it at the moment.   I don't want to hate humanity, that won't help anything.  I may not have energy to fight, but I do have energy to point out the beauty and support those who do have the energy to fight against it.  

Tomorrow I will find out if my electrical system is young enough to support the upgrades for weatherization to the house.   After the electrician comes and goes I'm going to Hadley to get a frame I need and a new book.   I'm bringing EJ with me and taking them to a store they want to go to.  I haven't gone shopping in months.  I have next to no money, but I think I can get those two articles.  Plus, a day with EJ, how wonderful.





 

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