March 12, 2025
Happy Happy Birthday, Sarah!! 
How come I always want to add all of these adjectives in front of your name, like beautiful, smart, wonderful, charming, loving?
I hope you had a great day.


Wednesdays are difficult to write on because they are all about me taking care of me and that doesn't give me much to write about, nor does it leave me in story telling mode.  But today I got in a short ride to the rookery where it was 47 degrees, quite a bit cooler than the past couple of days. There was this brown colored something all over the pond.  I couldn't figure out what it was, but it was throughout the water discoloring the ice.



I saw two deer on Taylor Rd.  Their hides were dark brown, everything seemed browner today.  By the time I got to the rookery clouds covered everything.  There is threat of snow tonight, but I don't believe it.   


Hey Mike, you relaxed in your new world yet?  I've been thinking about you, I was thinking how the very end was so much gentler than I feared it would be for you.  I'm so glad you knew when you had to let go.  I hope I do the same when my time comes.  

I've thought a lot about death in the past couple of days because of the anniversaries that surround me, but you are the most recent super close one.  I think my feeling about it all is that I really do need to be kind and tender to myself.  I have to hug the kid who lost her big brother this winter and will never talk about fish with him ever again.





Tonight was Writers Read.  We had three new members read who brought new people into LAVA.  They all got to experience the welcoming space that we've all grown to love.   Nice evening.   Thanks for reading, you all.





 

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