May 26, 2026

Happy Birthday, Margo Shea.  Hope you had a sweet day.  Let's have tea together soon.

Went over to Great Falls to have lunch with Dina and bumped into Emily G.  It was a great threesome, we laughed and cried in the 45 minutes we were all together.  We've gotten to the age where we are almost always dealing with death and grief and besides our body aches, grief is a big topic of conversation.  When you get with people who can be real about it and really talk about it, it's really nice. Dina and I stayed at the restaurant for a few hours and covered a lot of territory.  It's really good for me to have a fellow witness.  I feel a little more stable tonight.

EJ did a little shopping for me tonight so I had a little dinner at home. We got a visit in and I want to make a plan to go to the ocean together for a few days.  I have no money, so I can't really do it, but I'll start recycling cans.

What I noticed today was that if I stayed still and just looked out the window I was pretty pleased with my life.  If I just paid attention to my interactions with my loved ones, I knew I had a pretty good life.  But if I tried to stand up or complete a task, I got uptight very quickly.  My body is not working.  I could not wash a dish today.  I did a load of laundry in the washing machine, but I have not transferred it to the dryer, yet.  I am moving very poorly.  So I have to focus on the color green.  

I took a ride up and around and I saw the chickens, heron, a redstart, red winged blackbirds, and I believe a song sparrow.   Besides some steer, I saw no 4 legged animals.  But I saw color. 

Off to my book I go.  Tomorrow I will go to the pool and I start my sessions with the massage therapist, which is very exciting.  Monday is my heart procedure.  I have to get ready for that.  June is beginning and I am hoping it turns the tides towards fixing the problem instead of this continuous defining the problem.  Keep your fingers crossed.