December  27, 2025
Good picture day, not a lot, but interesting light and snow.   Can't really see the Berkshires, but it was sunny above me.  We got about 7 inches of snow, but by 3 roads were fine.  


I lay in my bed and read fairly late this morning.  It had stopped snowing when I got up at 7, but nothing was plowed and it was cold and I love my bed.  So I crawled back between the flannel.  
I dug a path out to the car around 11 and got the car out of the driveway.  I have gloves. (a Christmas present) and my neighbors came down with snow brushes and we cleared off my car so I could do a few errands.  The moon was hanging out already.  When I got home someone had plowed my driveway.  I take in all of the kindnesses that are done to me in a day.  The clearing of my driveeway, widening my path and helping me brush off my car making happy conversation counts for a lot.  I really have great neighbors.

It was 23 at the rookery and sunny.  It was blanketed in snow, no show of any running water.  I didn't see any wild life either.   But it stands in place, steady in my life. 


The flock of turkey were standing in the road near their usual place.  I think they were a little confused by the snow because it took them forever to move on and off the road. My driver's side window is still  broken, but I got this shot.


It is true that the week between Christmas and New Years becomes kind of borderless, timeless, things happen as you float along, but the normal boundaries, or beginnings and ends aren't in their regular places.  It feels good to lie in my bed and stare out on to the world before the plows have come through.  It's sweet to listen to the gentleness.  A train went through at about 4 this morning, noise was muffled, it shock  the house less, maybe because it had slowed way down or maybe because the snow creates a protective shield. 


And to wake up knowing I'm not going to work as usual ever again, not just this week, but for this next chapter of my life.  My dreams of what is next are getting clearer, sharper, and it i really important for me to focus in on the have to's.  I'm going to look back at my journal from a year ago and see if I accomplished anything this year.



I know I must have done something this year, but I'm having a hard time remembering.  I guess I curated a few  art shows.  That counts, doesn't it?

Ok, I am grateful for 2025, I learned a lot this year and I did not get into too much trouble.  Let's hope  2026 helps me conclude some of the more troublesome issues, like my damn leg.  I really want to take a walk in Pt. Reyes.  I'm also intending to have a couple of dinners here with friends this year.  And maybe, just maybe, I will

find a way to not be so dependent on my friends.
Ahh, that would be nice.




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