December 14, 2025
A very small cover of fine snow layered over everything this morning.  Little bird prints covered my driveway.  They are so perfect.


photo by Patrick
It happened on Nantucket, too, a fine blanket of snow over everything. Is this too cold a palette for a bedroom? Would you add a touch of yellow?






I've lost total control over my computer.   Windows 11 was uploaded and now everything gets referred to the new app which can't read my old docs.  It's a real problem.  I can't open my poetry, I can't print anything.  I need to install the new reutter that was sent to me and get a new word app, but keep from being funneled into 1984. Is it possible? 




I took a short ride today before my nap.  I didn't see anything new and exciting or walking on 4 legs, but it was nice to take in the view.  I had thought about going to Migratory Way but when the light is this funky it's not always worth the trip and I was enjoying my lack of direction and taking it easy mode.   



I've decided to set up my wall tree again this year.  Just a touch of decoration.  I got white birch incense, too, which adds another small touch of spirit to the room.   

I am feeling my sister Barb this week and she is smiling and fun.  I remember being so happy when she came home from college.  I also remember wanting to see Paul on weekends and that when he went off to school in Maryland he felt too far away.  I  guess I got used to it and I think I got used to being the eldest at home for a while.  Didn't last long, cause Mike came home with Jason again in 1968.  Is there a story in the Christmas of 68?  That was the last one at Signal Hill.  

So much good news today.   That's really cool.  Maybe I'll join a meditation group in January. Maybe I should get the things done I need to do in January and not worry about any more.  I need to get my housing stable and my health in order.  That's what I will care about in January and if part of that is joining a meditation group, then so it shall be.   But I am setting those intentions right now and will restate them until it feels steady to me.   










 

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