May 19, 2025
Feel like the daisies are early.

May 19, 2024
I looked today for babies, but no goats in sight.  I wonder if they were in the barn.  

 


57 degrees, grey and windy is the word from the rookery at 4:30 today.   I went up to meditate, but I ended out doing a lot of talking instead. The bird list was good, though.:  red winged bb,  crow, swallows of all kinds, mallards, red tailed hawk, grackle, kingfisher, and some unidentified small birds telling hawks to get lost. 


My brain was so full of questions today, questions coming from all sorts of places from What are early warning signs of MS to Is there an on-line skeleton identifier?   

I also spent the entire day with some kind of longing, not sure what I'm longing for, but it was just hanging there in front of my face, not quite close enough to grab or see clearly.  Kind of like the small hawk being chased, I don't think it was a kestrel.  It kept flying down near me, but I couldn't tell what it was.  It didn't have the kestrel head or the appropriate stripes.

The longing didn't have the appropriate stripes, either.  It wasn't calling for chocolate or a long slow kiss.  It wasn't calling for a new CD or maybe a walk down Old Greenwich Beach.   And no strange man came out of the woods or down the road to tell me about himself, either.  (That once really did happen to me.)  I don't know what I was longing for.  

I came home and took a shower and hoped I scrubbed it off.

I have so many friends wrestling with the medical system just as the Congress is debating a Big Beautiful Bill.  Can they be serious?  Can anyone really be looking at a system that allows the poor to go undiagnosed and die and the rich have access to everything?  Can they really believe that just gutting everything quickly will work?   Can anyone think beyond 2 steps in front of their own faces?  I mean really, did we really manage to create a civilization that can't think beyond their own noses?  Did we?  I knew our educational system was doing it, but I didn't think it would be successful in my lifetime.  I was wrong.

I told you questions, a lot of questions.  I also said I would try to avoid the political scene, but this one will effect me directly.  As poor as the system is, I am completely dependent on it and without it, I will die.  Plain and simple.    

Not sure what the weather is supposed to do tomorrow.  I'm going to try and deal with some practical matters, such as getting my driver's side window closed.   And with any luck get what I need printed for the show.   OK, wish me luck.   Good night.








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