May 10, 2025   Bard College Campus
 

May 11, 2025  Barton's Cove

Yesterday Di and I drove to Bard to see the circus.  We were so glad we did.  The rain stopped, the sun came out and the drive across to the Hudson was beautiful  We got there terribly early.  We had packed a picnic dinner and sat and ate it on the grounds over looking what would soon become a circus platform.  The production was entirely done by students and with very little extras, but with a huge amount of group support and energy.  It was wonderful to watch this inclusive show made up of many talents all being used to shine.  I was really happy to be there.  
The cast asked that we not post photos without permission of those in the photo so I won't post any photos that identify anyone other than EJ.  I'm going to give them access to a google file and if a photo is really good, they can ask permission.  But my camera clunked out on me very early on..  I was disappointed because it was a great opportunity for me to learn.  But, alas, not to be.


Today is the dreaded Mothers Day, I've become almost sinical about it so I try to keep to myself.  It's not as though I don't appreciate my own mother, I do.  Really Mom, Happy Mothers Day, but it is so fraught, I have to pass it off as a Hallmark Holiday.


Nonetheless, I had a few sweet things happen today including a beautiful ride to the rookery where it was 63 degrees without a cloud in the sky.  I made a list of birds that grew fairly long.  





I received a few phone calls from assorted friends and well wishers and Skyler took me to dinner and we went over to the cove and watched the moon rise.   It was a sweet evening and I am tired.  No time to write a new Mothers Day poem.  But maybe I'll find a nice photo of my Mom.  

But what makes a mother?  I have always said that I have experienced every piece of being a mother just not in the right order.  The entire concept is all confusing to me so I'm happy when this day ends.   



Thanks everyone who did reach out.  I know I am loved tonight.  I'm beat, but I'm loved, and I love.  


Hold each other tightly, you are so lucky you have each other,  you are so lucky to witness the moon rise, the sun set, the birds and the spray from the river's roar.   I am so blessed.   Good night. 





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